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Gilly's
Glen
In case you were not a diligent reader I've saved the past entries for you here. If you want to go back further, there are links at the bottom.
1-31-02
I am so insanely busy with work right now, it's unbelievable! I haven't done an ounce of homework tonight, and I don't care, but I'm stressed about work. I got to work at one, and had to leave for class at 3:30, so I had a totally frantic 2.5 hours. We were trying to get everything ready for our Community Reception this evening. Then I had to go to class, and flew back to the library. I got there by 5:45, which was earlier than I thought I would. Jill and I messed around with the equipment, got everything set up, then the rest of our help arrived at 6:30. By 6:50 people started to arrive, and I went into my community-mode. Those of you who know me and have seen me like this know what I'm talking about. I'm very professional, business-like, I network like mad, I become very sweet and endearing. What threw me a bit is that my mom came. I wasn't expecting her to come, but I guess she wanted to surprise me. I was surprised all right. It flustered me so much, that when I got up to speak, I had trouble getting the words out! I do public speaking all the time, I don't get nervous, but I came off that way. Susan and Jill both seemed really concerned, they knew my mom was coming, but that she didn't want me to know she was coming. Anyway, after we got through it, I enjoyed chatting with everyone afterwords. I was very happy to see Robin Linkhart, who I haven't seen for a few months. She used to work with a program I am in, and I have missed her. One of my youngest speakers, Scott, was there, he is such a great kid, I wish I could clone him. I talked to Kevin and his friend Tony, and Jack Hay, Steve Nelson, Carmen, Manuela, Art, Doug Brown, and a ton of people came up to me afterwords and told me that I had done a wonderful job speaking. I didn't think I did that great, but I appreciated the reinforcement. Being around these people reinforces my belief that the world is not completely fucked up. I think my mom was afraid that people there would know I was bisexual, and she would be embarassed. Like I was going to make an announcement or something!! "Hi everyone, I only know a few of you, but I just want to tell you, I'm bisexual, I have a girlfriend." *rolls eyes*
1-30-02
I spoke to soon yesterday, because now I'm feeeling crummy again and have a headache. This morning we got shafted in the Bed Sled race, but I don't really want to talk about it, cause it was just that stupid. Afterwords, I was starving so I drove through Wendy's. On the way out I almost got T-boned by someone who obviously didn't know how to drive. She literally came within about an inch of slamming into me. It had me shaking for an hour, but convinced me that God does not hate me. I guess just the fact that she came that close to hitting me, but didn't seems to point to another source of her stoppage (i.e. God). It may be silly, but I hopeful that this is a good sign that all is not against me. I almost fell asleep during Calculus, but made it through, and to work. I have a ton of junk to do for a Community Reception tomorrow night. It dawned on me today that of the hour and a half, I'm speaking for an hour. I haven't even really begun to prepare, so I got my stuff kind of together today. Then promptly at five, I called Ems and we decided that to celebrate our anniversary (that's such a formal word, it's sounds funny) we would go to . . . *drum roll* . . . Denny's!! I know, you must all be completely shocked. Then I called my house and told them that I had to work late to get stuff ready for tomorrow. I picked Emily and we sat there till well after seven. When I got home, the four cups of coffee made me more productive than I've been in a while. I did a bunch of sit-ups to work on the little pooch I've had on my tummy lately. Then I kind of waited around for my parents to go to bed before I got online, but then probably attracted their attention again by talking to Matt on the phone. My mom has been calling me everyday on my phone, it's kind of strange. She doesn't talk to me when she's home, but she calls me.
1-29-02
I don't feel sick at all today, which is good because at 9am tomorrow I get to ride on a bed through the snow. No it's not a really trippy dream, it's the City's 1st Annual Fire and Ice Bed Sled Race. I'm riding on the Youth Center's Grateful Bed, with a tie-dye shirt and a flower belt. Luckily I can fake the "Dead-Head" thing pretty well. Even my helmet has tie-dye paint. I still haven't been able to talk to Susan, and it's getting really sad. Tomorrow is also one month from the day that Emily and I first hooked up. :) I tried to come out to my German class today, but I wussed out. Half of them have already figured it out, but saying the words is hard. We had this writing assignment, we had to write about an interesting thing that happened to us this weekend. I chose to write about looking at Prom dresses with Emily and that turned into me explaining that I told my parents that Emily und ich bin zusammen. I omitted that part when telling the class about my exciting weekend. However, Frau Dwire will soon find out, when she reads it. So yeah, today I learned that it's hard to come out, even in a foreign language. I was inspired to write, but I've lost it now. *sigh* Emily can't come tomorrow to see me ride my bed. *pout*
1-28-02
I was feeling pretty crappy this morning, but I'm starting to feel better. Probably because I took vitamins this morning, and I've actually eaten today. Plus, I took a nice long bath tonight. It was sad though, I couldn't find any matches, so I couldn't use candles, so I had to leave the insanely bright overhead light on. :( We had a quiz in Chem this morning, but I think I did ok. What am I thinking? I don't even care enough to talk about school. Work today was sad, cause Susan wasn't in very much, so I didn't get to talk to her. Joey, our secretary, came back to my office today specifically to tell me that I have beautiful eyes. It was weird. Add that to a conversation he had with Brenda last week, and I'm a little worried. He asked Brenda if I had a boyfriend, and she replied no, which was technically true, and his response was, "Well, she should." Joey is just strange sometimes, and I get the feeling that he doesn't always "get it." The bed for the Bed Sled race is now equipped with a steering device, thanks to Marty Block and his engineer buddies. The front wheels are now caster wheels, so I don't even have to turn it. I'm still going to die on the bed, but at least I won't die in an unavoidable collision. Things are getting ever so slightly better with my parents. Or my mom at least, she's beginning to look at me like I'm a human. If you haven't already, check out the pic of me and my Emily sitting on the notorious couch in my office.
1-27-02
I'm getting sick. I wonder whose fault that could be?? Oh well, I'm asking for it. *smile* Today I argued with my parents some more and talked to my cool Aunt Marla for a while on the phone about how my parents aren't handling this very well. She was ok with it, more ok than my parents, but talking to her gave me a new perspective, and I think it was a good thing. I'm looking forward to talking to Susan tomorrow though. Somehow, she'll be able to help me figure stuff out. I think I want to bring my parents in for counseling with me. Victor (one of the Youth Center counselors) offered to talk to them once, and I might take him up on that. I guess I must have somehow managed to avoid getting out of being grounded, because my parents let me go *ice skating* today. Although what I actually did was go to Flatirons with Emily and get thigh high fishnets. We looked around at prom dresses a little, but there wasn't much selection. What are they thinking?! Prom is only 3 months away!! Then we went to Denny's and sat there for a few hours. Emily's brother Jon, and his buddy who is a waiter there, Rush, came in after a while. Rush came over and talked to us, but Jon didn't, it was weird. Then I came home, and didn't talk to my parents much. I think my mom and I kind of reached some sort of agreement this afternoon, but I'm not altogether sure what it was.
1-26-02
Well, I had a whole thing written, and then I accidentally deleted it. I'm not in the mood to rewrite it, so I'll give you the highlights. I came out to my parents today. They didn't take it well. I might be grounded, because of the thing Friday night, but I hope not cause I have plans tomorrow. Yay for 1000 hits!!
1-25-02
I am so sick of living at home. My parents are absolutely insane, they truly are. I will never be good enough for them . . . ever. I could really have developed a complex from that, but luckily I have Emily and my co-workers to help me realize that I'm not as bad as my parents make me feel. Tonight they got upset with me for something so stupid that it's not even worth explaining. The last thing my mom said to me was "Don't worry, we'll figure it out tomorrow, don't worry, just go out and have fun, we're figure it out tomorrow." That is a direct quote!! How much more passive aggressive can you get?? I'm considering coming out to them just to see if they will kick me out of the house. I could move in with Susan, and have a normal life. And my mom can sit at home worrying about me becoming a lesbian, because you know they're recruiting and it's highly contagious. *rolls eyes* If I had been with anyone but Emily tonight I really think I would have lost it, but somehow she makes me feel better. Anyway, I'm gonna go to bed, and actually wear pajamas tonight in case I get dragged out of bed at 6am by two crazy parents.
1-24-02
I just spent 2.5 hours trying to come up with a new page design for the site, and what do I have to show for it?? Absolutely nothing. At least nothing ready for public viewing. Today was a long day. I left my house at 7am and got home at 7pm. Nothing too great happened in between. School sucks, finding times and places to kiss Emily is fun. Today was the second day of my college class, and I got to feel smart cause I knew that the Romans called the Celts keltoi. I knew that they thought they were barbarians (bar bar bar) because they ate geese (?), had tattoos which made their skin seem blue, and one other thing, long hair maybe. Anyway, I felt very smart due to that. I also felt very attractive cause the guy next to me kept checking me out. Too bad for him I'm taken already. After class I had all of 15 minutes to get to work for a meeting. From school it's a good half hour drive, with no traffic. In the middle of rush hour I'm proud to say it only took me 35! I stopped to get gas on the way home cause I really didn't want to go home because of the argument yesterday. I really don't feel like talking to my mom now. So I came home and went to my room, started doing homework and put my headphones on. I'm very much looking forward to tomorrow, cause Emily is going to come in and officially meet Susan and Jill. Later, we're going to see LotR. We didn't see it last weekend, so it's not really that bad!!
1-23-02
Well tonight, I got the Bible thrown at me by my parents. It was fun, really. It all started with me telling my mom that Susan and Danny had a place for me this summer if I need it. I had to explain to my mom who Susan was, and consequently that Danny is her lesbian lover/life partner type person. At this my totally conservative anti-homosexual mom completely freaked out. Three hours later we all went to bed. Or at least they went to their room and me to mine. Then Craig came back while my mom was in the bathroom and told me that he knew I was bisexual, he had pegged me from the start. We talked for a few minutes about that, and I explained to him my theory about letting yourself be attracted to whomever you are attracted to. Not limiting it by gender. He understood, but explained that he didn't feel that way, and couldn't agree with people who did, but that he accepts me. He said, "Your mom will have a hard time with that." But somehow I don't think he's actually going to say anything to her, just let her assume what she will. It won't be long before he'll figure out that I'm dating Emily too I guess. Today was not a good day for a confrontation with my parents though cause I had had a really stressful and long day at work, not to mention hardly seeing Emily at all. And I haven't even started on the huge amount of homework that I have for tomorrow. Arg!
1-22-02
Ugh, I absolutely hate chemistry, why am I taking it? Someone please tell me? I found out that I won't be getting a D, instead I have a lovely C to show my mommy. Add that to all my other average grades, and it adds up to a big disappointment for mommy. But I just can't make myself care, it takes too much effort. Plus I have other things to think about. Like kissing Emily in the parking lot at lunch today. Then I went into work, bit the bullet and told Jill and Susan. They were both totally supportive, which didn't surprise me at all. Susan told me that she talked to Danny about me living with them this summer, and Danny was totally cool with it. Her only question was "Will she have parties and can I come?" Susan and Jill rock, they really do. Susan was really worried about me last week, cause I was understandably not myself. They want to meet Emily again, cause they've both met her very briefly. Anyway, after that I went back to school for Calculus, yippy. I seriously wouldn't be in that class unless Keilian was teaching it, cause I was his aid all last year, totally a teacher's pet. Anyway, then I deposited a check, and went to Borders to look for books for class, which started today, and who do I run into there but Emily!! They didn't have my books, but she bought her planner and then we went to Wendy's, cause I hadn't actually eaten anything since the bagel at 7am. Not that the fries were exactly nutritious. But we got to freak out the 3pm Wendy's crowd by *gasp* sitting on the same side of the booth!! Then we walked back over the Borders where our cars were parked, holding hands, and we pissed this lady sitting in her car off by kissing goodbye. After that pleasant interlude, I headed off to class, getting there early to buy my books. The teacher was the same one I had last semester, and she was pleased to see me. I came home and managed to get some work done. Then I got online to tell you all about my adventures in bisexuality. :)
1-21-02
Ok, I now have leave to share something with you all. Those of you clicking on the link from Emily's page and have read her rant probably already know what I'm about to say. Emily and I are dating. We told all of our good friends last night, and that is what I had been dreading. I hate labels, but if you wanted to give me one, it would have to be "bisexual." Stuff happened while we were in Estes Park over break, but it had been building for a long time. There was an unbelievable amount of sexual tension between us. It's fair to say that it's been resolved now, and that we will continue to resolve it. :) I hope no one is too shocked by this because it isn't really a surprise, and if you think it is, take a look at the updates from the past month. It's pretty obvious. Ummmm, that's all for now, I may update again later, but don't count on it.
1-20-02
I've been dreading today for about a week now. But now that it's over, I'm glad. I hadn't actually given it much thought, but I got up today, and was like "Oh shit, today is the day." Yeah. I got up and showered and went to lunch with my mom, and we talked and she got on my nerves as usual. Then we went to my grandparents, just as my aunt and cousins were leaving. My cousins were thrilled to see me, cause I'm the cool older cousin. I like being cool. :) Anyway, we talked to my grandparents for a while, my grandma was disappointed that I was going to UW and wouldn't be living with them next year. I don't really understand why she wanted me to live there so much, but then I don't understand my grandmother either. Anyway, then we went home, and I watched a few minutes of the Packers game. I had told Emily I would come by and see her at work today, and so I left right before half time. We talked a bit, and I walked with her to get pizza. I went home, and got there just as the 3rd Quarter was starting. As the game steadily grew worse and worse, I got more and more bummed. To cheer myself up afterwords I watched Ally McBeal again. Then Emily called and I went to pick her up and we headed to Applebee's to meet everyone. This is what I was dreading, because we had to confront some tough issues with the group. Basically, they were upset that we had been spending so much time together, and assumed it was because we hated them. So we explained the real reason to them, and they were totally ok with it then. I'm not gonna tell you guys what it was just yet, but since Dina figured it out by reading the page, I think you guys can manage it too.
1-19-02 Today was a nice day. I slept until noon, then I got up and showered and Emily came over. We watched Ten Things I Hate About You and *talked* for a while. She had to go to work at five. I watched my taped shows, and then talked to my parents for a while when they got home. My mom was giving me advice on "How to get a man" that she picked up from some talk show on Friday. It was annoying that she felt the need to give me advice, and even more annoying that the advice was so horrible. Stuff like "Don't act too self-sufficient" or "Show him your sweet/weak side." What the hell!! This is the 21st Century!!! Then she started asking me if a guy asked me to prom would I go. Knowing my mom the way I do, I could sense that she was thinking of setting me up with someone, cause she likes to play matchmaker. I really don't need to be set up for prom, cause I've already got a date. So anyway, I kept asking her who she was trying to set me up with, and she kept denying it. Finally she was like, "I don't have anyone in mind, yet." I told her that I didn't want to be set up, especially not for prom. She'll probably try anyway, because she's so cool like that. So yeah, she progressively got me more upset with some other stuff that we talked about, and then she and Craig left for the movies. I took a bath, and then Emily called when she got off work, and we went and got something to eat and drove around for a while. Tomorrow I get to go to lunch with my mom and grandma, woo hoo!! Anyway, since I haven't had any coffee today and am actually tired, I'm gonna stop typing.
1-18-02
I've been up since 5:45, which sucks. I went snowboarding today, and it was the coldest day that I've gone all year. Thinking of a certain person kept me warm though. *cryptic smile* We got back at 7 and Emily and I pondered seeing LotR again, but ended up going out to eat instead. And *shock* we didn't go to Denny's!! We ate at the Armadillo, and then went to Denny's for coffee. My hands are shaking now, cause I think I had 6 cups in the two hours we were there. Our waiter friend Rush was there, and he came by to talk to us, as well as Emily's brother Jon. There were also a few people from school there, and Emily and I thought about doing something shocking, but we didn't cause we're cool that way. This is the 3rd day in a row that Emily and I have sat in Denny's drinking coffee. Most of the waitstaff recognizes us, and gets our coffee quickly, and continues to fill it up. Emily is the only one of my friends who could stand to do the exact same thing 3 days in a row, which makes her so amazingly cool. She's like a million times cooler than anyone else I know. We sit calmly and talk about interesting stuff. We don't feel the need to talk loudly about stuff that people don't really want to hear about. Even so, I think we manage to get and keep the attention of people around us. :) Anyway, despite the coffee, I'm feeling kind of tired, and should try sleeping.
1-17-02
Today was the longest day I've had for a while. I got up to take a final at 7:20am, yuck. Then on they way home I got a speeding ticket. 15 over. Woops, guess my Niwot Rd. driving rules failed me. Don't feel like explaining that. When I got home I got ready to go to work, cause I hadn't actually put any make-up on for my final. Got to work, stayed for an hour, and then had to go pick up my new contact lenses, and get food at Albertson's for our ski trip tomorrow. When I got back to work, I decorated the kitchen for Art's going away party tomorrow which I will sadly be missing. While I was in our work kitchen, I decided to be really cool and wash all the dishes in the sink, it made me feel good and useful. At 3 I was supposed to go downstairs for the pool tournament, and at 2:30 one of the volunteers called to get some more handouts for a presentation tonight. I had to print it all up, and drive it over to his business in 30 minutes, which stressed me out. I made it back shortly after 3 and headed downstairs for the pool tournament. The kids didn't get on my nerves too much, but the noise kind of did. And I got more phone calls while I was down there than I have in the past 2 months! Once I escaped from there, I came home and sat in silence for a while, enjoying it. Then I missed Ems too much, so we went to Denny's and talked for 2 hours. Today had the potential of being really bad (speeding ticket, early final) but it was ok because of a few reasons. Hanging out with Emily always makes life good, and also two of my random online guy friends came back today. One military guy who is in Korea, who I used to talk to quite a bit, but don't actually know his real name, and then my buddy Jake from Wisconsin. I hadn't seen either of them in a few months, so it was happy. So in conclusion, I have had a long but good day.
1-16-02
Well, today has been a *fun* day. I had one final, that I think I might have passed, but I wanted to kill the whole class while taking it. I don't really want to talk about that. Then I went to work, and spent the afternoon trying to restrain my homicidal urges, yet again. Emily and I spent 2.5 hours in Denny's tonight, drinking coffee and talking, and that really helped. Thanks Ems, you rock my world. Then I came home and spent several *hours* studying for my precalc final, that I have at 7:20 in the morning tomorrow!!!!! How insane is that!? I can't perform that early in the morning! *sigh* I'll just go in my pajamas and come back home at 9 when the final is over and sleep for another hour or so. But then I have to go to work, and I agreed to this "Challenge the Staff" pool tournament thing. It's a way for kids who come into the drop-in rec center downstairs to get to know the people upstairs. I really suck at pool, and I'm not a competitive person, so it should be fun. Maybe I'll spend the morning practicing. Ummmm, that's all I can tell you that's fit to print. Have a lovely evening.
1-15-02
So I was all excited when I saw that I had gotten another 40 hits in one day, until I checked my guestbook, and saw why. Jon Drew and Tom Stian have been having a little fight/argument in my guestbook. It's pretty amusing cause they're both so cool. ;) Sorry guys, but I have to make fun of you. It's my nature. While you're in my gbook, sign it! Anyway, today was a fun day. My German teacher, who rocks, brought Kona coffee for us, for during the final. The rest of my class is too weak to handle strong coffee straight like that, but I had 3 cups. I am so cool! That was on top of the two cups I had at breakfast. I went to a funeral luncheon today for my Great-Uncle, and had a cup of coffee with one cream and one sugar, and my Uncle Ken was giving me crap about *ruining* it. So I said something like, "Well since this is my sixth cup, I thought I would dilute it a little." Bad idea. My uncle's wife immediately says, "Well he's on his third pot." And my Aunt Shirley, who was next to me, is like "I'm on my eighth or ninth cup." My stupid family is so competitive!! I was just making a stupid comment, it's really annoying. Oh well, I spent most of the luncheon bonding with Jessica who is 5. Ironically, I get along with her better then any member of that family, cause she's so cool. I've known her since before she turned one, and she's finally becoming person-like, it's great. And she thinks I'm really cool, and I love admiration. I feel sorry for her, cause she has to deal with our crazy family much more than I do. She has great taste in clothing, today she was wearing a sparkly pink shirt, with a rhinestone butterfly pattern. So anyway, I eventually escaped from the family snares and got in to work. I spent the afternoon running errands for Jill so she would have time to work on this grant application that's due Friday. Everyone give Jill happy-grant thoughts for me. I have a final tomorrow, over like 50 psych vocab words, and I studied for about an hour. I'm screwed, but I don't really care. Then I got online cause I wanted to talk to Emily, and hadn't been able to all afternoon cause I had been out of the office. How sad is it that I live a mile away from her, and could drive over or call her on the phone, but I have to get online to talk to her? Anyway, aren't you glad I had a semi-interesting day that I could share with you all? As opposed to the last few days, when I've been too busy finding new uses for old friends to tell you guys about it.
1-14-02
This is my finals week. I had one final today, though it wasn't actually our finals day. Chemistry. I think I totally bombed it. Oh well, I hate that class more than anything, so it doesn't matter too much. I have a vocab quiz and a German final tomorrow, but I'm not too concerned about those. Tonight I went out to get gas in my car, and was gone for like 45 minutes. I just drove around for a long time thinking. I've been doing quite a bit of that lately. I have a lot of stuff to think about, but I don't feel like sharing, cause I'm selfish. :) I only share with Emily, and there's not a lot we haven't shared. I'm really amused by that, but since no one else but Emily will understand that, you can all just ignore it. So yeah, I don't actually have anything interesting to write about, cause I can't write about any of the interesting stuff. That made no sense, but no one reads this anyway, so it doesn't matter.
1-13-02
Today was nice. I got up at 1pm, and just hung out around the house, not really doing anything for a few hours. Then I went out to lunch/dinner with my parents. We ate Chinese, and they made an attempt to catch up on what is going on in my life, but they're so far behind that they'll never really catch up. There's certain things that I don't know if I'll ever tell them, cause there's only one other person who knows, as of today. Anyway, then I went to Denny's with Emily, cause we haven't been going as much as usual, and it's sad. I had a lot of fun just hanging out, cause we haven't actually done that, cause we've been seeing LotR every weekend. I'm thinking that next weekend I'll get the girls together, cause I want to tell them about #4. That's kind of an inside thing, so if you don't get it, you're not meant to. Once I've told them, I might consider explaining it to you. Yeah, I don't really have anything exciting going on right now that I can share with you, so I'm just gonna stop talking.
1-12-02
I have a tummy ache right now, and it's really sad. Today was a weird day. I didn't really have anywhere to be or anything to do, until later, so I just drove around aimlessly for a while. I drove past the Cheese Importers where Jen works, and on a whim went in to see if she was working. She was, and she was just going on her break, so we sat and talked for a while. I haven't hung out with just Jen for a while, because I'm always with Emily, so it was weird. Anyway, while I was there, I decided to find some cheese curds, because they don't have them at the supermarkets out here. So now I'm eating them, and they're giving me a stomach ache. I went to visit Emily at work, and she got out early, so we went to her house for her to change before going to the movie. We saw LotR again tonight, because we are just that cool. Wow, it somehow got really late, really fast. Oh well.
1-11-02
Today has been a good end to a bad week. Mostly because I spent most of the day with Emily. I was late to breakfast though, because I overslept, and then had my mom pissed off at me, before 8am, I don't know how that's possible. So then we went to english, where we had a lovely little quiz that I hope I did ok on. We got back the one from Wednesday, and I got an A-!! Go me!! Then we were seperated for 90 minutes. After German, I went into the library and ended up dragging Emily into work with me. Mostly for her to use my computer, but also so she could meet everyone I work with, since I talk about her constantly. Then she had to go to work, and I spent the last hour and a half that the mall was open there with her, just messing around, and freaking out her manager, Josh. We were gonna meet up again later, but it got late, and my mom was still being a freak. So there you have it, my day in a nutshell. Tomorrow night Ems and I are going to see Lord of the Rings, yet again. Yay! I'm so excited!
1-10-02
I have had seven cups of coffee today. Consequently I did a ton of work on the website. I have added a german page, a car terms, and combined sucks and rock into rucks. I also added some stuff to the cool people page, and contemplated fixing the gbook, but ran out of time. So you'll have to be content with what I did do. I had a bad day yesterday, so I didn't update at all. Today started out good, then it went sour, and then good again. I *accidentally* missed Precalc, and ended up sitting in Denny's with Dina and Matt. Then I went to work, and left early to pick up my glasses, which I just got new lenses for. I hardly ever wear them, cause I wear contacts, but I'm getting all I can out of my parents before next year. I ate dinner with my parents, and then went to Stammtisch with Emily for an hour. We haven't hardly seen each other all week, which is really sad. I think that's half the reason I've had such a bad week. And Emily and I haven't had any *quality* time since we were in Estes Park, which is truly tragic. ;) We're going to breakfast before our quiz in college english, yay!! But I do really need to get to bed, in order to make it out of bed in the morning. Enjoy the additions!
1-8-02
Some days just suck, and today has been one of them. I don't even know why, but today was a bad day. Just little stuff went wrong all day, people were driving me crazy, and I only saw Emily for like two minutes. But hopefully we're going for breakfast before our quiz in the morning, and then LOTR again next weekend. I spent a few hours last night looking at pictures of Legolas. I now have quite a collection, plus a screen saver from the official site. I'm such a dork, but it's fun. Plus I have Emily to drool with me, what more do I need?? I've got myself panicked tonight about scholarships, so I wrote an essay to pacify me. I have to cut the length almost in half, which should be fun. But that can wait until *later*. Tomorrow promises to be a busy day, why not cram it in there somewhere? :) Today is my grandmother's birthday. She died almost 8 years ago. Maybe that's why today was a bad day. I laid in bed for a while last night thinking about her. I miss her. Anyway, maybe thinking about her has brought me down.
1-7-02
Yay for Emily and her happy link to my page. As of now I have two new gbook signatures, from people I don't know! Woo, highlight of my day!! The lowlight (Is that a word? It is now) of my day was finding out that my dad is in town. He's a truck driver and occassionally has loads that bring him to my lovely area of the country. Usually he goes east from Wisconsin. Anyway, everytime he's out here I feel stalked, and I get all paranoid. I haven't spoken to my dad since I removed him from my life a year ago. Ever since then he's been trying to get me to talk to him, constantly. So yeah, tonight he asked my mom to ask me if I would go out to dinner with him, he offered to buy me lobster. *shakes head* Doesn't the thought of a lobster dinner just make you want to forget that you're not speaking to someone?? I told my mom that I had a study group, and she told him that, and he said (and she repeated to me), "Any other lies she wants you to tell me?" I had already told my parents about this study group thing, but my mom repeats his statement like she was actually serious!! I love how my mom will totally agree with me about him, but the minute she talks to him, she acts like she's on his side, it's crazy!!! I mean, I don't care whether or not she supports me in this resolve, but at least don't play both sides!!! *sigh* Oh well, the study group was enlightening. I "checked" my answers with half our AP Chem class, for the take home test we've had for a month. I still haven't done the labs, but as long as I get them in by the end of the semester, I should be ok. That's what I keep telling myself. Hmmmm, craving something salty, may have to go find food.
1-6-02
My mom came into my room tonight to tell me that she was okay with me going to UW. It took her 21 hours to decide that, but at least she decided. Parents are totally insane. I've found myself wishing that I were in college lately, so that I could walk around in pajamas without make-up on, and no one would notice, cause they're all dressed the same way. I mean sure, I could do that in high school, but like Bianca, "I happen to like being adored, thank you." Only I don't wear "strategically planned sundresses" and I would never sell out my older sister, or become friends with a bitch named Chastity. I've been watching a lot more TV during break, but it's ok, cause I hardly watch any during school. Today I studied chem for 5 minutes and decided that I needed a break. So I drove to Blockbuster and shamefully rented Never Been Kissed. It was a bad idea, because I really don't care for Drew Barrymore in her weak girly roles (The Wedding Singer, Ever After). I didn't really enjoy the movie, but it was a nice study diversion. And it was probably better than watching Ten Things I Hate About You for the 50th time, literally. Anyway, as I'm sure you can tell, my day was pretty thrilling. Last night, I did work a lot on the cars and german pages, but neither is ready for public viewing. Soon, I promise!!
1-6-02
I love sleeping till noon, it's a wonderful thing, especially when I can do it two days in a row! I spent most of the day cleaning my room and doing laundry. I didn't mean to be so productive, I just started by throwing away all the stuff from colleges i'm not going to, and it kinda snowballed from there. But now my room is clean. At seven I went over to Amy's for the work holiday party. I had fun, just talking and hanging out. It was like a regular work day, cause we don't really ever work, only there was beer involved. :) Wow, somehow that just reminded me of another funny story I forgot to tell you, I don't know how. On Wednesday, Matt Z. came in to borrow my snowboarding pants for the Youth Council snowboarding trip on Thursday. He walked up to me, and was like "Pants." I looked at him and said "Pants." Then I turned back to my office to get them. As I was walking it occured to me the oddness of our conversation. We started joking around about pants. He said something to the effect that when people asked him what he did over break he could say, "I got in Gilly's pants, and rode them all the way down." See?? Even the good kids can be gross and immature. Cause it's fun. Anyway, I had to miss out on bowling with the work crew tonight cause my parents wanted to be here when they got back from Arizona. They wanted to talk to me. I joked with everyone that they were going to throw me out and I would come to the bowling alley with pajamas and a sleeping bag, looking for a couch to crash on. They have the whole summer set up, couches for me to sleep on, once my parents have moved to Arizona. It's great to feel so loved. :) So yeah, I came home and my parents were decidedly unenthusiastic about me deciding about college. Woo.
1-5-02
I am really tired. I left work early today, cause I felt really weird. I wasn't sick exactly, I just felt dizzy, I couldn't see straight. The only drug I had had all day was caffiene, which isn't unusual for me, so it was weird. As soon as I got home I felt fine. I took a bath and then got ready to go out. Emily and I went to Wendy's and then went and saw Lord of the Rings again cause we're cool like that. I really enjoyed it, Legolas is still really hot. Emily and I giggled like schoolgirls every time he came on the screen. When I become a stalker, he'll be my first target. Today before I left to pick up Emily, I did something that I'm really proud of. I put a check in the Yes box and put it in an envelope to send to UW to tell them that I'm going there. I also got my stuff ready to send for housing. My parents will be so proud of me when they get back tomorrow, they really will. I'm proud of me for finally deciding. I'm really tired, and I feel crummy, so I'm gonna go to bed instead of doing more work on the site, like I had originally planned.
1-4-02
My computer sucks, so I didn't get to update last night. It was really sad cause I actually had interesting stuff to write about. *sigh* It's still interesting today I guess. I spent two hours at the eye doctor and came out with crazily dilated eyes. I had to go back to work, so I sat in my office with the lights out wearing sunglasses. One of my co-workers came in and was like, How are your eyes? I just looked at him and said, I'm sitting in a dark room wearing sunglasses, how do you think they are? I was greatly amused by that. Then at five Jackie came and we working on the YAR site for two hours. We were going to go for coffee afterwords, and just as we were leaving the Youth Council got back from their snowboarding trip. So we talked to Brenda for a while. Then when we were finally leaving, this guy comes running up to my car. He was one of the Youth Council people and he had just locked his keys in his car with it running. Once I recovered from my hysterical laughter, I agreed to drive him out to his house to get his spare set of keys. Only then does he inform me that he lives 30 minutes away. So I called Jackie to tell her, and she decided to go to the mall to get a gift certificate for her dad, and then she hung out with Emily at work until I got back to the Youth Center. Then we finally met at Starbucks. We rented a movie, crazy/beautiful, which actually was pretty decent. Kirsten Dunst is hot. :) Then Jackie and I just kind of talked for a while, and she left at 1am. Then I got online to tell you all about it, and my computer decided that it didn't want me to. It was sad. I stayed up till 2 anyway and talked to Emily. I had to get up early this morning to go to breakfast for a co-worker's birthday. We went to this place called Cafe Marnie's, which I have to take Emily to sometime, even though the food sucks, cause it's our future house. The stairs Emily!! It's adorable, you would love it. Then I came back to work and started doing this and deleting all my old emails. Good story, no? :)
1-2-02
I spent four hours tonight trying to get my modem to work with Windows XP, and failed utterly. If anyone out there knows anything about XP, please tell me. I need help!! At work today I did almost nothing. We had a staff meeting, and then I worked with Jill trying to print stuff out on Bertha (our evil color printer), but she was having trouble duplexing. It was a day of frustration with computers. I was going to go and visit Emily at KB, but then I got involved in the XP stuff. So yeah, I haven't really done anything since I got home from work. I have to go in to the eye doctor tomorrow. I'm really looking forward to it. Yes. Anyway, I'm going to go do some other stuff.
1-1-02
I just got out of another candlelit bath, it was lovely. I was planning on relaxing, but I'm totally alone in my house, so of course I start hearing people walking and talking in my empty house. I managed not to freak out though and the noises stop. Now I'm sitting in my room with four candles, my back turned to the door, and I'm totally fine. I am so brave. I talked to my mom tonight from Arizona, she was just checking up on me. I'm looking forward to sleeping in my own bed tonight, for the first time since Friday. My bed isn't that great, but I've missed it. I came up with some new ideas for the site, but I can't stay up late tonight, cause I have a staff meeting at 10am. Yuck. I freaked out earlier, cause I was looking at a withdrawl reciept from yesterday and my balance was like \\$15. I knew I had at least a few hundred in there, so I had to go out and check again. I don't know what happened, but it was back to normal. Wow, a guy on the radio just requested a song for his girl who was leaving to go to school in Wisconsin. It wasn't me, but I feel special anyway. Anyway, I'm gonna get to bed. Happy New Year everyone.